I gave too much...

I dismissed red flags...

I called it being nice...

It was self-betrayal.

it took me 41 yrs

to finally fix most of my missing shadowed parts into my Self's canvas!

I took off my shades...and looked straight at the truth infront of me...

I wasn't being nice...i was programmed to people-pleasing.

I wasn't betrayed...i betrayed myself by enabling, accepting and appeasing!

i wasn't blind i was scared from the weight of the undesirable truth once it lands upon my heavy heart!

i wasn't ignoring i was dismissing.

One moment shifted my whole existence.

One moment of truth showed me the parts i was avoiding in the mirror.

i always rushed to clean the mirror...but this time i decided to look at the scars and listen to all that's hidden behind them.

it takes courage to not pretend that you are courageous.

It takes fearlessness to contain hidden fears.

But today, i choose to witness it all.

i choose to see clearly especially that which i don't enjoy seeing.

As Carl Jung says "if you dont make the unconscious conscious it will lead your life and you shall call it fate".

I know it's not fate, its passive unconscious consent.

Let's rise together by daring to look within.

with love,

MT